For a while now I've been thinking about this person. I've known him for a long time now. We grew up together. When we were kids he was so a happy, playful and energetic.. but starting high school he became fragile and emotional. He is such a nice guy that even when his classmates bully him he doesn't fight back. But maybe that's one reason why they keep on picking on him.
Growing up with him, I was somewhat the more hardworking one? My grades were always better than him. I don't know why there are people who don't care about their studies. It's like they don't even try and think about their future.
So yeah I was talking about this 'friend' of mine. I said before that we grew up together, and I'm writing this because I believe I was the one who made him the way he is. I won't say what happened or what I did to him that made him like that. Let's just say I kind of tortured him during our childhood. I was just a kid then, I didn't know better. And when I realized what I did to him was wrong, I've been hurting inside. Whenever I think of that I feel vulnerable and weak. I can't even tell this story to my friends because whenever I do I cry.
One day, I met my friend's mother. I asked her advice about that issue. And she told me "It's not your fault. It's his choice that he became like that. It was his choice that he became the way he is.. because if he wanted to change, then he would decide to change." She told me it wasn't my problem, it's his. And that I shouldn't be the one to change him back the way he was.
She told me a lot of things that made me feel a bit better. She said I shouldn't mess with other people's life problems. I know in my heart that it was really my fault, so instead of dwelling in the past I should just cheer him on and wish him luck.
I wanna share my story to those people who can't forget about something they did in the past. I hope I can be of help to someone out there. I can listen if anyone needs an ear.
